Happy Halloween! I enjoy this day, through the eyes of my kids. Dressing up, carving pumpkins, mug of hot cocoa (with a splash of peppermint schnapps) to keep me warm as I stroll the neighborhood with my trick-or-treaters. But, I'll admit. I'm not much for the truly scary stuff. Here are a few things that have scared me so terribly that I'll never read or watch them again. In fact, typing them here is giving me a chill...
Stephen King’s “Salem’s Lot” (the book).
Amityville Horror (“get out – get out!”)
Silence of the Lambs
The Shining ("Heeeeeere’s Johnny!”)
The Exorcist (truly terrifying)
Those are the ones that had me hiding under covers, looking over my shoulder, and sleeping with the lights on.
But, I'll be honest. In my daily life, what scares me more is not doing everything well. Raising my kids, my career, my writing... I am a fairly confident person, but there are times when I question my own capabilities.
What makes me think I know what I'm doing? Am I just fooling everyone? Do I really know how to (fill in the blank) better than someone else? Do I really think I can raise these kids and pay these bills, and write these articles, and present to these clients, and manage these national projects, and handle this volunteer project?
It's daunting. Overwhelming even. I am my own worst critic. But maybe, what's scarier still is letting that fear - that worry, that little voice inside my head - get in the way of my own success.
Remember that movie where the girl calls the phone company to trace the "crank" calls she's been getting, and the phone company tells her "Ma'am the calls are coming from inside the house." UGH. That's me. The fear and doubt are coming from inside my own head. Enough already. I'm disconnecting the line.
But I digress, have a safe and Happy Halloween! And may all that scares you today (and every day) be Hollywood movies and Stephen King titles.
By the way, what's your scariest movie and/or book? And what scares you most?